As I look back at the past year I think, what a difference a year makes. S had no hair this time last year. V was only three months old. We were still adjusting to a major shift in our rhythm and it wasn’t easy. Compared to years past this year has been relatively uneventful. We didn’t move or have a baby, graduate or find a new job. We just kind of stayed put. But that’s not to say that this year wasn’t full of learning and growth and discovery.
When you think about the first year of a baby’s life, the rate of change is mind-boggling. In this one year V turned one and went from sleeping most of the time to: walking, talking, singing, intentionally annoying her sister, outgrew all of S’s hand me-downs, feeding herself using a fork or spoon, drinking from a cup, using straws, and saying three-word sentences in two languages; she even takes her plate to the sink after dinner. She seems way too smart for her own good and we often call her the little scoundrel as she gets into mischief with the cutest smile on her face.
This year for S has been a bumpy year of growth as well. She turned 3 and grew six inches, she learned her alphabet and numbers in two languages, makes up poems and songs, recounts and invents elaborate stories, reads to V, helps me cook meals, learned to ride a balance bike and learned to embroider, just to name a few. She has truly become her own person and there is almost no baby left.
As for me, did I accomplish any of the things I mentioned last year? Yes and no. I made one great wheel of hard cheese before V woke up, then after that I didn’t have time. I did learn to do the dishes every night, but still have a hard time keeping up with it. I started learning to crochet very slowly. My garden was doing great until a drought and excessive heat killed it all. I did start thrifting more, but not as much as I would have liked. And I’m still dreaming of owning my own home. It will come in time.
This next year though will be something all together different. We are moving out of the desert, where just yet I’m not going to say as the plans aren’t final. But oh my this will be some adventure. As I begin to go through our life here, I see how much clutter we have created. Daily I am removing unused things from our home; slowly I am learning to let go of this and that and any emotional ties I may have to these objects. It’s been hard for me to do this. Many of the things I am removing from my life are things that I had place a lot of time and energy around. Lots of dreams. But really it’s just stuff. I already wrote a post a while back about stuff and I have to remind myself of this. Stuff is stuff and can be bought again if needed. But it’s the people and experiences in life that matter most.
This year, like last year, I have a short list of things I want to accomplish.
- move my children out of the desert to a place where they can play, run barefoot in the grass all summer and eat snowflakes in the winter in their own front yard.
- take time for myself religiously, not just when I am about to crack from the stress.
- finish learning to crochet
Anything else that comes along will be wonderful.
I have so enjoyed sharing this space with you all this year. I am so grateful that you all come here read my thoughts and share your own. It means a lot when you reach out and find a community filled with so many amazing, like-minded people, whom you may never meet in person but who matter just the same. If you feel so inclined, I would love to know how you found this space and what you like about it. Every time one of you comments on my posts I get a little flutter of excitement in thinking that I have said something worth discussing or commenting on. So lovely really. Thank you and Happy New Year!